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Just for Beasts

by Old Tom & the Lookouts

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1.
Flat Leaver 03:02
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Half of my brain is a flat leaver Leaving me half a pissed dry heaver Keeping me awake Always left awake Moving fast like armageddon Legs are slow laden with lead again Steady on Dissonant tones and feckless honesty Riddled with holes my hopes apart from me Always left a fake Just leaving me a fake Moving fast like armageddon Legs are slow laden with lead again Steady on I heard it gets better over time I heard it gets better over time Moving fast like armageddon Legs are slow laden with lead again Steady on Half of my brain’s a flat leaver Half of my brain Moving fast like armageddon Legs are slow laden with lead again Moving fast like armageddon Legs are slow laden with lead again Half of my brain Half of my brain Half of my brain Half of my brain
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Mokey Says 02:54
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Mokey says the world is gonna end soon He warned me all about the Pentecost But I know it don’t cost much just apologies Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Mokey says could be the next day coming Oh and you can hear the death songs humming Some kind of broken hymn needs breaking in Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down I can hardly move I can hardly move Mokey says the world is gonna end soon Mokey says the world is gonna end soon Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down Get up and run you fools I’m weighted down
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Hey Edna 03:42
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Hey Edna I’m sorry you’re hurting You can tell me if it’s good enough for now Hold a spoon beneath the nose of loveless turning Just hanging terminal and looking for the out Drawing lines like something permanent might come Well it’s graphite anger staining both your thumbs Hey Edna I can help with the burning Turning polaroids to ash your favorite version It must be smoke that got your tear ducts churning I know cryings not your fashion I’m sorry Edna that you’re hurting Drawing lines like something permanent might come Well it’s graphite anger staining both your thumbs Ooo You can say it’s good enough for now Ahh Well I’m still here just hanging out I’m sorry Edna (I’m sorry Edna) Take your time to settle in I could be your satellite just waiting for you to share what’s done you in I’m sorry Edna I’m sorry Edna Take your time to settle in (I’m sorry Edna) I’m sorry Edna (It’s good enough for now) Take your time to settle in (I’m sorry Edna) I’m sorry Edna (I’m sorry Edna) (It’s good enough for now) Take your time to settle in (I’m sorry Edna) I could be your satellite just waiting for you to share what’s done you in Hey Edna You can say it’s good enough for now Ahh Well I’m still here just hanging out I’m sorry Edna (I’m sorry Edna) Take your time to settle in I could be your satellite just waiting for you to share what’s done you in Hey Edna You can say it’s good enough for now Ahh Well I’m still here just hanging out I’m sorry Edna (I’m sorry Edna) Take your time to settle in I could be your satellite just waiting for you to share what’s done you in I’m sorry Edna I’m sorry Edna
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Alive 04:11
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Well it’s hard to know if I’m alive Slinging sorry like we’ll never die Crashing revelations from the sky Still unsure but meanwhile I Found myself the deepest ditch Dug from stories How we ate the rich It’s hard to know if we’re enough Let the heart lines show we’re out of luck Calling favors from the night Pray the beds we’ve made can hold us tight Well it’s hard to know if I’m alive Slinging sorry like we’ll never die Crashing revelations from the sky Still unsure but meanwhile I Found myself enough for this Though it’s hard to prove that I exist Blood and words like bread gone stale So I’ll write myself the tallest tale Calling favors from the night Pray the beds we’ve made can hold us tight Well it’s hard to know if I’m alive Slinging sorry like we’ll never die Crashing revelations from the sky Still unsure but meanwhile I I told myself I must be alive Cause I’m hurting like I’m sober and I’m feeling eighty-five Your bones don’t creak when you’re under ground When your backyard skulls start screaming There’s no hope to settle down To settle down Calling favors from the night Pray the beds we’ve made can hold us tight Well it’s hard to know if I’m alive Slinging sorry like we’ll never die Crashing revelations from the sky Still unsure but meanwhile I Calling favors from the night Still unsure if I’m alive
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Just for Beasts 03:35
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All the things I shouldn’t say I go and say them anyway You know I get bolder in the night Well I crumble easy like dried up cake And I’m counting down to my next mistake And I’m searching for something that I can make right If I could write songs just for beasts we’d bleed only in name Sharing our monsters for fun for the monsters who came They’re just shapes in the dark now you see Oh they’re empty and broken and mouthless singing songs just for beasts Bury my impulse deep in the basement Take for instance my impatience Now I’m sorting out how to fuck about without hurting anyone It’s like decorating a sinking ship while the iceberg is below showing just the tip Of the monster submerged with a devil’s grip But the ships just so spotless you bite your lip And you wait for it to blow over And you wait for it to blow over If I could write songs just for beasts we’d bleed only in name Sharing our monsters for fun for the monsters who came We’re just shapes in the dark now you see We’re just empty and broken and mouthless singing songs just for beasts Now we’re empty and broken and mouthless singing songs just for beasts Now we’re empty and broken and mouthless singing songs just for beasts
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Madelyn 03:45
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How could I remember Every day you kept me fed Not as sharp as last December Dulling boots off of my head I wasn’t here for all the things I said Please forgive me for fucking up Madelyn I’ve been waving these ghostly arms suffering I’ve been dreaming of coming to meet you Where the road didn’t rise up to greet you Madelyn I’d expect you’d remember Every time I was sent home early Disappearing last November Too soon for anger too late for fury I wasn’t here for all the things I said Please forgive me for fucking up Madelyn I’ve been waving these ghostly arms suffering I’ve been dreaming of coming to meet you Where the road didn’t rise up to greet you Madelyn I know I wasn’t here for all the things I said I know I wasn’t here for all the things I said Just forgive me for fucking up Madelyn I’ve been waving these ghostly arms suffering I’ve been dying to come up and meet you Where the road didn’t rise up to greet you Madelyn
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Hovering Crows 03:00
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I was here Flown down to your pigeon toes Melt down First wet and then froze Down the double edged sword of going deaf Caught fallen in the forest Oh the hovering crows and the hope still left Oh I’m down again and nearly dead Didn’t see Couldn’t hear me moving slow Like a tree Cutting teeth on the first buds grown Down the double edged sword of going deaf Caught fallen in the forest Oh the hovering crows and the hope still left Oh I’m down again and nearly dead Oh the vines are growing wrapped up tight Close to me so close to me While my hands and my feet just don’t feel right A blanket of leaves serves to comfort me I hoped for something better than this Ooo better than this I hoped for something better than this Ooo better than this
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Gran Gran's Pharmacy 03:19
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Kicking around the old state hospital The rattling chains of somebody’s pain gathering badges for the honor roll I heard a door slam late last night Voices hum down the corridor I feel like a bastard late to the fight With a nose for the fist and a head for the floor I hoped you would cradle me down Words soaked through Is it over yet Emptying out my Gran Gran’s pharmacy Handfuls of benzo washed down the drain She won’t need it now just to sleep off the pain She was a dream late last night Goodbye for now as we dodge a kiss Back to the ground and away from the fight Sleeping better now than she ever did I hoped you would cradle me down Words soaked through Is it over yet Now it’s always more convenient to pretend we didn’t see it If you walked across the coals you stoked than you probably wouldn’t mean it Hell you just might quote a parable to convince us you’re less terrible Though we know we’ll be forgotten once your boots are beneath your end table I hoped you would cradle me down Words soaked through Is it over yet
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Waiting on Line 04:25
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Told me I wouldn’t have to wait on line long Told me I didn’t have to question why Half truths that stumbled out half wrong Made a whole half that came to life Mountains of clay to look like houses In neatest rows built standing by Those dirty hands are often mouthless It’s a pound of dirt before you die Stuck waiting on line for this I don’t want it Fuck waiting on line for this I can’t bear it (I can’t bear it) I’ll never sit still See it’s way past my range of motion Ingesting lies like ketamine Armor for sleep forged from devotion It’s all so fake not double jointed as it seems I couldn’t muster up the strength to tell you I’m not as happy as my toys Regurgitate the toxic hell you sold to all us self-destructive little boys Stuck waiting on line for this I don’t want it Fuck waiting on line for this I can’t bear it (I can’t bear it) I’ll never sit still Stuck waiting on line for this I don’t want it (I don’t want it) Fuck waiting on line for this I can’t bear it (I can’t bear it) I’ll never sit still For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness For someone claiming all the light you bring an awful lot of darkness
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Dark Rooms 04:04
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Have you ever stared into a dark room with the lights off from your room Shapes that look back but don’t move Like a ghost or a demon From the films left you screaming (Ahh) It’s a closed door with the lights turned out Shout till you’re hoarse Flick the lights on of course See with your hands as you brush past the bureau It’s a dance in a minefield of dog toys and clothes Pushed away with your foot You don’t see where you put all the obstacles you’re working past Shout till you’re hoarse Flick the lights on of course Let it settle in Let it settle in It’s a dance in a minefield of dog toys and clothes Like a ghost or a demon from the films left you screaming It’s a closed door with the lights turned out Shout till you’re hoarse Flick the lights on of course
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Love in a Hospital 03:58
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It’s like my hands don’t work so good Not connected to the arms I understood Used to work like mine Used to think like me It’s a haunting dereliction of the broken parts of me When you hurt all over and you feel like giving up Please don’t give up It’s like making love in a parking lot I’m not saying I have I’m just taking a stab at the world that I haven’t got It’s like waking up in a hospital I’m not sure where I am but I’ve done what I can just to make it all possible Oh the dogs are growling louder than I’d ever heard before It’s so hard to keep your head straight while the wolves are at your door Kick and scrape like me Feel the hate like me Staying honest to the birthmark you can touch but you can’t see When you hurt all over and you feel like giving up Please don’t give up It’s like making love in a parking lot I’m not saying I have I’m just taking a stab at the world that I haven’t got It’s like waking up in a hospital I’m not sure where I am but I’ve done what I can just to make it all possible It’s a morphine drip to pass the headache It’s a manic tip strapped to a bed frame Let me growl and rip to slow the healing It’s a plaster strip to hide the bleeding When you hurt all over and you feel like giving up Please don’t give up It’s like making love in a parking lot I’m not saying I have I’m just taking a stab at the world that I haven’t got It’s like waking up in a hospital I’m not sure where I am but I’ve done what I can just to make it all possible It’s like making love in a parking lot I’m not saying I have I’m just taking a stab at the world that I haven’t got It’s like waking up in a hospital I’m not sure where I am but I’ve done what I can just to make it all possible
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Graveyard vs. Hot Air Balloon 03:57
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Either it’s the graveyard or the hot air balloon There is nothing in between I begged the earth to hold me close It’s the heights that made me scream I claimed the secrets nobody knows Not a soul Not a soul I’ve endured a fair amount When the airways broke and the lungs let out Placed in a pool where my feet can’t touch When you’re underwater you don’t say much Your god don’t give a damn about me Just a grown man Learn to swim Your god don’t give a damn about me Just a grown man Learn to swim Either it’s the graveyard or the hot air balloon There is nothing in between I’ve endured a fair amount Just hot air and canvas in a basket house It’s only grey sky where my feet can’t touch When you’re up so high you can’t say much Your god don’t give a damn about me Just a grown man Learn to swim Your god don’t give a damn about me Just a grown man Learn to swim Just learn to swim Your god don’t give a damn about me Just a grown man Learn to swim Your god don’t give a damn about me You’re a grown man Learn to swim

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released November 4, 2021

Tyler Nicolo: Mixing/Mastering
Alex Calabrese: Music, Lyrics, Production, Guitar, Vocals, Keys, Bass, Ukulele, Percussion
Cecilia Vacanti: Music, Violin, Vocals
Jacob McCurdy: Music, Production, Vocals, Guitar, Percussion
Michael Sanford Day: Banjo
Galen Fraser: Fiddle (Love in a Hospital, Graveyard vs. Hot Air Ballon), Cittern (Mokey Says)
Ralph Peterson: Trumpet (Hey Edna, Graveyard vs. Hot Air Balloon)
Connor Storms: Flute (Graveyard vs. Hot Air Balloon), Guitar (Alive), Vocals (Alive, Hey Edna)
Steve Dennis: Vocals (Waiting on Line)
Zach Khanlian: Vocals (Hey Edna)
Nick Cabrera: Vocals (Hey Edna)
Jameson Stewart: Bass (Hey Edna)
Alex “Sasha” LaCava: Accordion (Gran Gran’s Pharmacy)
Carmen & Lizzy: Vocals (Madelyn, Graveyard vs. Hot Air Balloon)

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Old Tom & The Lookouts Boston, Massachusetts

Old Tom & the Lookouts is a Boston-based Indie-Folk band, creating hopeful, evocative music about mental health. The lyrically driven project, shared through the lens of writer and singer, Alex, delivers a minimalist tone, accompanied by lush string arrangements, witty and brooding lyrics, soulful melodies, and striking harmonies. ... more

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